February 4, 2013
I hit a wall with all of my proactivity, so I thought I’d take a moment of leisure to share some thoughts:
First, I ate too much pizza, and I want to throw up.
Second, I need to work out and not eat so much pizza (appropriately juxtaposed with item #1).
Third, Belmont is doing Les Mis, and they didn’t even ask me to audition. Rude.
Fourth, my Adventures of Writers Who Walk professor came up to me after class and told me that my journal for her class was the best she had read. She asked me what I was majoring in, and when I told her music business, she encouraged me to at least minor in English. “You’re a really great writer,” she said with a smile, “I can tell you really love it. If you don’t, well then you’re a very good actress.” The thought occurred to me: can you act and sing through your writing? Why not?
Fifth, my professor’s praise is another thing to add onto a growing uncertainty in my psyche. I came to Belmont for three reasons: Nashville, kind people, and music business. Right now, I’m having an incredibly difficult time projecting a vision of myself in the music industry. I still see my idea of a wellness counselor coming to fruition, but is that a good enough reason to dish out private school tuition so far away from home? The business school is well-acclaimed. Maybe I can switch to that to appease my dad, throw in an English major/minor on the side, and call it a day? I just feel bad for staying when I no longer need the specialty major, you know? You can be expecting more drama from me on that subject later.
Sixth, today is my Belmont anniversary. Ironically beautiful.