April 16, 2013
I’m not even sure what to write tonight. I am legitimately exhausted- physically and emotionally- and this 2 1/2 hour span of Theta meetings is the last and first thing I want tonight.
Something clicked the past few weeks as Theta was the main stressor in my life. It has been such a drain for me emotionally to have Greek Sing rehearsal every night and long chapter meetings every Sunday night. Sorority life is inherently high stress, but I think that Theta is a high stress organization.
Don’t get me wrong- I love these women. And I love them more today than I did yesterday and the day before. And I love them because I’ve been spending so much time with them, but I’ve had such a bad attitude about going to things. I’m trying to be gracious to myself because as an introvert, I need alone time in order to recharge. My time is precious to me, and although I made the decision to be in Greek Sing and Theta at large, they are high stress situations. I want to have a good attitude, but it is really hard. But I know I am growing because of it. As a Theta, I will always strive for and be encouraged by my peers to excellence in all areas of my life.
I’m rambling because I’m distracted by the discussion going on around me, but I really wanted to write about how meaningful this community has been to me the past couple of days. Watching the number of days left in the semester decrease so quickly, I’m increasingly appreciative of my friends, particularly my sisters, and pushing through my bad attitude and introverted tendencies, I’m grateful for the stress put on me by Theta because it made me run to Thetas to relieve it. I’ve probably gained 10 pounds from stress eating with them, but Lord, they are a blessing. I never get tired of hearing about how well we support each other, and we need to do it more.
Be gracious to yourself and take care of each other. These are my mantras right now.
All my love,