April 30, 2013
I could cry thinking about my freshman year of college and how much I’ve grown. I am noticing things daily that I like about myself- in the mirror and in my soul. I am beyond privileged, and I do not take this time of flourishing for granted. It has proven me to myself and given me a solid foundation to base my independence on.
I guess that’s what this was all about: learning new things, growing in character (and in the hips), and developing a dream. And my dream is taking form. It shimmers and makes my heart quake with anticipation. My life work is about the development of the individual. And it starts with me.
You should be proud of yourself. I see a beautiful woman in you, and she is everything you hoped and worked for. Congratulations. I have seen your mind stretch and grasp at every detail of knowledge that has been shared with you. Not many people care the way you do to connect the dots and organize all of the information they are given.
You realized this year how much of an impact your past has on you, and you channelled it with discipline into a book. You are 19 years old, and you wrote a book. You are barely 20, and you’re already crossing off life goals. You are such an overachiever. I love it.
You tested your faith and found it weak. That’s OK. You’ll look back on this time as a growing experience. You missed being a devoted Christian, and you will put in the work to rekindle that relationship. It is engrained in your earliest childhood lessons to seek God. He is here in every moment of freshman year; you were a little busy taking it all in to notice.
More than anything, you started your lifelong journey of wellness in all areas- physical, emotionally, intellectual, social, spiritual- and you have set yourself up for success. You have potential. You have power. Go use it.
I don’t know if I’m allowed to do this, but it makes sense for me to sign like this:
Past Ashley, Present Ashley, and Future Ashley